Dear Uncle In Bloomer Wisconsin,
I have tried for over 25 years to address child sexual abuse and incest in my paternal family. The majority of what I experienced is from your brother, Robert and when I was gang raped [by mouth] in your farm house by Peter [the baby sitter and his friends].
They got me drunk and high and passed me around. I had a near death experience there and I chose to come back. I had a "parting gift" in the form of Oral Gonorrhea. I was 4 years old.
I wonder if you remember a guy named Peter? All I know is that he was the baby sitter and he invited many people over to sexually molest me. I have all the details chronicled at the beginning of this blog.
It is called Every Survivors Story Is Different.
I count myself one of the many people who applaud you in your recovery regarding alcohol.
I wonder if maybe Peter was one of your drinking buddies. I wonder if maybe you might have been impaired in your judgment of Peters ability to be a good choice in being in my and my 2 year old brothers care. Do you know Peter yet today? If you do, I suggest you contact the police as he is most likely contenting to molest children unless he has been caught before this letter.
I contacted the people of AA and asked them about one of the 12 steps. The step was #8.
This was the kind response from the people of AA.
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Hi XXX,
I am so sorry to hear what you have experience in your life. I cannot imagine the journey your experiences have taken you on. A.A.’s Twelve Steps are a group of principles, spiritual in their nature, which, if practiced as a way of life, can expel the obsession to drink and enable the sufferer to become happily and usefully whole.
The program of A.A. is a personal choice and a personal journey. They are there to guide us, but it is up to each individual how they work with them.
I believe only that person involved in the 8th step can answer that question.
I pray you find resolve and peace for yourself.
In Service
Gail Stenger
Office Manager
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[continuing letter to Uncle in Bloomer]
I do not blame you or anyone else in this world for anything I have experienced or ever Will experience as I am a Gnostic Christian and believe that I have chosen everything I will experience. The only thing I want to stress is that basic accountability is all I have ever asked for. I am sorry but I believe that your father got after both Robert and Alice. I stayed with Alice in Milwaukee and there are actions that tell me that she is a survivor as well. One trigger for her is Frank Sinatra era music. She is fine with it if is is Without the Vocals. Instrumentals are what she listens to. I feel sad for her because, sometimes people do not do the work.
Lastly there are ripples in the waters of what I experienced.
I have tried to speak with Alice about this for years. She will not speak to me. I have tried the same amount of years to speak with my parents. They have shut me out and refused me on many levels. I am now asking you to step up and show me some kind of family loyalty.
Without a Firm Example Of Family Loyalty From You, I Can Not Promise To Continue To Have Family Loyalty To You And Yours.
*I do not have my name on my blog as yet, and I have not as yet revealed my birth name. So I can not sign this letter. That is why you have received a notice in the mail to read your letter here.
I have tried for over 25 years to address child sexual abuse and incest in my paternal family. The majority of what I experienced is from your brother, Robert and when I was gang raped [by mouth] in your farm house by Peter [the baby sitter and his friends].
They got me drunk and high and passed me around. I had a near death experience there and I chose to come back. I had a "parting gift" in the form of Oral Gonorrhea. I was 4 years old.
I wonder if you remember a guy named Peter? All I know is that he was the baby sitter and he invited many people over to sexually molest me. I have all the details chronicled at the beginning of this blog.
It is called Every Survivors Story Is Different.
I count myself one of the many people who applaud you in your recovery regarding alcohol.
I wonder if maybe Peter was one of your drinking buddies. I wonder if maybe you might have been impaired in your judgment of Peters ability to be a good choice in being in my and my 2 year old brothers care. Do you know Peter yet today? If you do, I suggest you contact the police as he is most likely contenting to molest children unless he has been caught before this letter.
I contacted the people of AA and asked them about one of the 12 steps. The step was #8.
This was the kind response from the people of AA.
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Hi XXX,
I am so sorry to hear what you have experience in your life. I cannot imagine the journey your experiences have taken you on. A.A.’s Twelve Steps are a group of principles, spiritual in their nature, which, if practiced as a way of life, can expel the obsession to drink and enable the sufferer to become happily and usefully whole.
The program of A.A. is a personal choice and a personal journey. They are there to guide us, but it is up to each individual how they work with them.
I believe only that person involved in the 8th step can answer that question.
I pray you find resolve and peace for yourself.
In Service
Gail Stenger
Office Manager
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[continuing letter to Uncle in Bloomer]
I do not blame you or anyone else in this world for anything I have experienced or ever Will experience as I am a Gnostic Christian and believe that I have chosen everything I will experience. The only thing I want to stress is that basic accountability is all I have ever asked for. I am sorry but I believe that your father got after both Robert and Alice. I stayed with Alice in Milwaukee and there are actions that tell me that she is a survivor as well. One trigger for her is Frank Sinatra era music. She is fine with it if is is Without the Vocals. Instrumentals are what she listens to. I feel sad for her because, sometimes people do not do the work.
Lastly there are ripples in the waters of what I experienced.
I have tried to speak with Alice about this for years. She will not speak to me. I have tried the same amount of years to speak with my parents. They have shut me out and refused me on many levels. I am now asking you to step up and show me some kind of family loyalty.
Without a Firm Example Of Family Loyalty From You, I Can Not Promise To Continue To Have Family Loyalty To You And Yours.
*I do not have my name on my blog as yet, and I have not as yet revealed my birth name. So I can not sign this letter. That is why you have received a notice in the mail to read your letter here.
